midnight love letter

ever the gentleman,
you gave me your hand
and promised a journey
unlike any other, one
where you would never
leave my side, ever.

if i didn't have you to
hold on to, i don't know
where i would be--
pleasure bent and broken
by others that can't
fulfill the deepest thirst
that drives me, perhaps
despising myself and the
choices i made, too
caught up in my own
comfort to realize i could
live another way.

instead i am with you
here and now as i am
without many things
yet brimming with others
owning a deep-set hope
in your very essence and
breath moving in me;
you are beautiful, i am
enchanted and waiting
even as your voice tunes
my heart to a song of
incomparable longing.

and you say, ask, and
i'll give.  so i ask, for
your sake and your will,
my understanding limited
but fully trusting in your
perfection and timing.